Unselfish love

How different we are from Jesus.

When we go through tough times in our life, our hurts that come emotionally, physically or mentally we cannot focus on anything but ourselves. How much we should have what we want, how much we hurt, how badly that person hurt us. We just can't go on.  It is all about us. If we get hurt emotionally we pull away from everyone, everything. Taking it to a physical level, if we get hurt physically we want someone to take care of us, to baby us, etc.  I know!!  I am the biggest baby ALIVE when I'm sick (my husband my question that with 'ONLY then??').

Yet while Jesus is on the cross ~ the most EXCRUCIATING pain that anyone could ever imagine phycially (the obvious), but also emotionally and physically, I mean He knew He was about to have all the sins of the world, OUR sins, put upon Him, that He would be so covered in our dirtiness, that His Father would even have to turn His head.  How scary that must have been for Him!  Yet while He is in this place of pain, He doesn't focus on Himself. No "Woe is me" for Jesus.  He is more concerned with others. Specifically, the thief. While Jesus is dying... painfully on the cross, taking on the worlds sin, feeling rejected by His Father, what does He do??  He is reassuring the thief!!! He is telling him "It's okay, I tell you today you will be with Me in paradise"

What unselfishness!

Peace in the storm

Tonight is definitely what you would call a 'stormy night'.  Rain, wind, thunder, lightening, hail, the whole nine yards, topped with the fear of a tornado warning.  Can you tell I don't take severe storms well?

It reminds me, that I am no different that Jesus' chosen few (the disciples). Reference Luke 8:22-25.

I can just imagine the storm that night being similar to a night like tonight; pitch black because of the clouds, lightening flashing up above, an odd warm feeling to the air.  Then they get a little further out into the sea, and the wind really start whipping!!! Kind of like how my house was shaking only minutes ago because of that wind!

I can imagine them all grabbing their chests, feeling a tightening feeling in their chest and throat as they begin to have a panic attack. And yes, I definitely know this feeling. Something devastating is about to happen, they can just 'feel' it. 

Then it's like they suddenly remember, "Ah ha! Jesus is on the boat!!!  He'll know what to do!" And they called out to Him. As I have had to do multiple times tonight as fear has tried to overtake me.  But, just as Jesus calmed their storm, and fear.... as I finish writing this... He has calmed my fears, and storm, though it is still minor out there, the heavy storm is over.  And He has protected us.

"When I am afraid, I will trust in You." Psalm 56:3

Prayer

God,

I give it all to you, over and over again
I keep picking it back up though.
Thank you for taking it each time,
This time I could hear you say
"My child, LEAVE it there for me,
I will take your heavy burdens from you."
I will try again God.  Please take my burdens.

You promised me through numerous people,
The desires of my heart You will give.
I know that this can only come from You.
I do not keep asking because I don't think You will pull through,
I ask, because You tell me to.  I beg.

Thank You for the revelation today,
That You are in control, and there is NO ONE else who could be better at that!
That even though I don't understand Your timing, YOU do, and that is all that matters.

One day, I will be able to look back
And see Your perfect plan for my life.
Until then, I am walking each day in faith
That You are the perfect director in this orcrestra called my life.
You know the perfect timing for each person, job, situation to come into my life.

Thank You for all you have shown me today.