So, last week wasn't so hot for us. We were off work for 5 days, and so we slipped a little (or a lot). But got right back on the ball Monday (with some slippage on Tuesday... will we ever get a good full week out of it?). Today was weigh in day, and boy did it tell on us for not doing what we should have been doing.
Ken - 263
Tosh - 223
We can do so much better than that.
My goals for this week:
*Eat at home (on the diet plan), and if we MUST eat out (last week of play practice) then stay on the diet plan (a salad with ff dressing or grilled chicken).
* Go for a walk this weekend
*Starting Monday back on C25K
* Get Ken to go for a walk with me since it has cooled down.
Lets see if we can see those pounds drop!
Oh!! Supper tonight was A-MAZING if I do say so myself :) I made Mediterranian Stuffed Chicken Breasts (it was just roasted red bell pepper, olives, feta cheese and basil) and garbanzo stir fry (all the veggies like zucchini, onions, bell peppers, etc). Yum-o!
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Saturday, September 25, 2010
2 Timothy 1:7
This is my "to live by verse" especially right now. God did not give me a spirit of fear, but of POWER, LOVE, and a SOUND MIND.
This past year I have struggled with a severe fear of dying. It is the oddest of things, because I know that when I do die I am going to be with my Lord and Savior. I have no doubts about that. Or do I? Could that be something? The root of my fear that Satan in honing in on? I KNOW that God sent Jesus to die for me so that I could go to heaven to worship Him for eternity. I went about 2 months not even knowing what to call this scared-ness. Then God showed me and I started calling Satan out on it with the above scripture. It had gone away and I was able to enjoy my life to the fullest.
My fears always centered around my death, and sometimes I could have vivid thoughts/images about it. Satan would put pictures into my head about car accidents, crashes, etc that I couldn't control. The biggest fear though is a heart attack, stroke, blood clot, and/or an aneurysm, all health related. I think maybe some of that took root after my surgery. I had some problems w/it, well not really, but kinda, but the last thing I remember before hand is me thinking I made a mistake and shaking my head back and forth when they put the gas mask on me. They said I fought like that for about 10 minutes after I was "out". Then getting the blood clot (PE) about a month later. I KNOW that God was with me during these situations and He pulled me out of them. But I wonder if this is where the fear took root at.
Anyways, I haven't had any bothers with this for over 6 months. Praise God! Then last night it hit me again. It was 3am before I could pray through it and get some rest. It was continuous thoughts running through my head... "My heart is beating fast, surely it is beating fast, am I about to have a heart attack?" "My head hurts awfully bad, its a wierd kind of tingly hurt... am I about to die from an aneuresym?" "Will Ken wake up to a dead wife?" alllllllllll night loooong Satan threw these thoughts at me. I just kept praying God's love and comfort and healing power of protection over me and quoting that scripture... in my own ad lib way "God did NOT give me a spirit of fear, but of POWER over satan, LOVE for Him and everyone, and a SOUND MIND!!!" I was able to go to sleep, like I said, around 3am (the alarm went off at 7am). But I have had a little twinge of the fears as the day progressed. Satan is NOT going to keep me from sleeping tonight so I am well rested to worship my LORD tomorrow during church.
I know that I need to keep my mouth shut about my fears, and speak ONLY of God's promises of PEACE & SAFTEY so that Satan will know HE IS DEFEATED. So I looked up some more scriptures to start memorizing and thought I would share them with you, in case anyone out there is in the same boat (even if not about the same thing) as I am.
Psalm 12:2 Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, the Lord, is my strength and my song; He has become my salvation.
Psalm 23:4 I will fear no evil for You (God) are with me.
Psalm 27:1 The Lord is my light and my salvation - whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life - of whom shall I be afraid?
Psalm 34:4 I sought the Lord and He answered me; He delivered me from all my fears.
Psalm 41:10-13 KJV Fear not, for I am with you. Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of My righteousness. Behold, all they that were incensed against you shall be ashamed and confounded. They shall be as nothing. They that strive with you shall perish. You shall seek them and shall not find them that contend with you. They that war against you shall be as nothing.
Psalm 56:3 Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You.Isaiah 26:3 You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You.
Isaiah 35:3,4 KJV Strengthen you the weak hands and confirm the feeble knees. Say to them that are of a fearful heart, "Be strong, fear not. Behold, your God will come with vengeance, even God with a recompense. He will come and save you."
Isaiah 41:10 Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
Luke 8:50 Do not be afraid. Only believe.
Luke 10:19 I give you the authority to trample on serpents, scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy. Nothing shall by any means hurt you.
Romans 8:15 For you have not received the (evil) spirit of bondage again to fear; bur you have received the (Holy) Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.
Hebrews 13:5-6 God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"
1st John 4:18 RKJV There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out (looses/evicts/exterminates) fear because fear has torment. He that fears is not (yet) made perfect in love.
Looks like I have a lot of memorizing to do. I need more in my arsenal against the enemy! Until then, I will just have to get up and read, read, and re-read over and over again.
Many Blessings of Peace to you ALL.
This past year I have struggled with a severe fear of dying. It is the oddest of things, because I know that when I do die I am going to be with my Lord and Savior. I have no doubts about that. Or do I? Could that be something? The root of my fear that Satan in honing in on? I KNOW that God sent Jesus to die for me so that I could go to heaven to worship Him for eternity. I went about 2 months not even knowing what to call this scared-ness. Then God showed me and I started calling Satan out on it with the above scripture. It had gone away and I was able to enjoy my life to the fullest.
My fears always centered around my death, and sometimes I could have vivid thoughts/images about it. Satan would put pictures into my head about car accidents, crashes, etc that I couldn't control. The biggest fear though is a heart attack, stroke, blood clot, and/or an aneurysm, all health related. I think maybe some of that took root after my surgery. I had some problems w/it, well not really, but kinda, but the last thing I remember before hand is me thinking I made a mistake and shaking my head back and forth when they put the gas mask on me. They said I fought like that for about 10 minutes after I was "out". Then getting the blood clot (PE) about a month later. I KNOW that God was with me during these situations and He pulled me out of them. But I wonder if this is where the fear took root at.
Anyways, I haven't had any bothers with this for over 6 months. Praise God! Then last night it hit me again. It was 3am before I could pray through it and get some rest. It was continuous thoughts running through my head... "My heart is beating fast, surely it is beating fast, am I about to have a heart attack?" "My head hurts awfully bad, its a wierd kind of tingly hurt... am I about to die from an aneuresym?" "Will Ken wake up to a dead wife?" alllllllllll night loooong Satan threw these thoughts at me. I just kept praying God's love and comfort and healing power of protection over me and quoting that scripture... in my own ad lib way "God did NOT give me a spirit of fear, but of POWER over satan, LOVE for Him and everyone, and a SOUND MIND!!!" I was able to go to sleep, like I said, around 3am (the alarm went off at 7am). But I have had a little twinge of the fears as the day progressed. Satan is NOT going to keep me from sleeping tonight so I am well rested to worship my LORD tomorrow during church.
I know that I need to keep my mouth shut about my fears, and speak ONLY of God's promises of PEACE & SAFTEY so that Satan will know HE IS DEFEATED. So I looked up some more scriptures to start memorizing and thought I would share them with you, in case anyone out there is in the same boat (even if not about the same thing) as I am.
Psalm 12:2 Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, the Lord, is my strength and my song; He has become my salvation.
Psalm 23:4 I will fear no evil for You (God) are with me.
Psalm 27:1 The Lord is my light and my salvation - whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life - of whom shall I be afraid?
Psalm 34:4 I sought the Lord and He answered me; He delivered me from all my fears.
Psalm 41:10-13 KJV Fear not, for I am with you. Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of My righteousness. Behold, all they that were incensed against you shall be ashamed and confounded. They shall be as nothing. They that strive with you shall perish. You shall seek them and shall not find them that contend with you. They that war against you shall be as nothing.
Psalm 56:3 Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You.Isaiah 26:3 You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You.
Isaiah 35:3,4 KJV Strengthen you the weak hands and confirm the feeble knees. Say to them that are of a fearful heart, "Be strong, fear not. Behold, your God will come with vengeance, even God with a recompense. He will come and save you."
Isaiah 41:10 Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
Luke 8:50 Do not be afraid. Only believe.
Luke 10:19 I give you the authority to trample on serpents, scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy. Nothing shall by any means hurt you.
Romans 8:15 For you have not received the (evil) spirit of bondage again to fear; bur you have received the (Holy) Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.
Hebrews 13:5-6 God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"
1st John 4:18 RKJV There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out (looses/evicts/exterminates) fear because fear has torment. He that fears is not (yet) made perfect in love.
Looks like I have a lot of memorizing to do. I need more in my arsenal against the enemy! Until then, I will just have to get up and read, read, and re-read over and over again.
Many Blessings of Peace to you ALL.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
I know, 2 post in 1 day...
Hehe does that make this a twofer? I just thought it had been a while since I showed off pictures of my family so here goes...
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| Dakota during his first football game! |
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| Keaton 4 years old (right before his bday) |
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| Tyler 2 years old |
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| Hunter 14 months |
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| Analia (almost) 6 mths old (the diva!) |
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| My brother Chris skiing! |
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| My brother Michael skiing |
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| My sister in law Becky & Analia |
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| My sister Jennifer |
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Weigh-in Day Week 1
We have arrived at the end of Week 1 of Operation "Diet"
Synopsis - We both did very good over the weekend. I blew it on Monday at work, but immediately back on track for supper. We ate "out" Monday night (grilled chicken from KFC) AND Tuesday night (grilled chicken grover salad from Big T) so I am sure the "up" we are experiencing yesterday and today is from sodium intake. I'm working hard to flush mine out (100+oz water yesterday and it is 2pm and I'm on 64oz for today). I went for a walk Monday evening (out of guilt) and I believe I am going again this evening, and I'm going to try to drag Ken along. I think he would do even BETTER with exercise.
Weigh in results:
Ken:
Start Weight (SW) - 276
Current Weight (CW) - 266
Goal Weight (GW) - 245-250
Total Loss of 10 lbs in week 1!!!!
Tosha:
SW: 232
CW: 225
GW: 220
Total Loss of 7 lbs!!
**Side note: Before our sodium uptick Ken's lowest weight this week was 261! Mine was 223!
Hope you are enjoying our weight loss journey!
Oh! Tonights supper = Salmon Patties and Steak Tomato "Pizzas" (I love South Beach diet recipes!)
Synopsis - We both did very good over the weekend. I blew it on Monday at work, but immediately back on track for supper. We ate "out" Monday night (grilled chicken from KFC) AND Tuesday night (grilled chicken grover salad from Big T) so I am sure the "up" we are experiencing yesterday and today is from sodium intake. I'm working hard to flush mine out (100+oz water yesterday and it is 2pm and I'm on 64oz for today). I went for a walk Monday evening (out of guilt) and I believe I am going again this evening, and I'm going to try to drag Ken along. I think he would do even BETTER with exercise.
Weigh in results:
Ken:
Start Weight (SW) - 276
Current Weight (CW) - 266
Goal Weight (GW) - 245-250
Total Loss of 10 lbs in week 1!!!!
Tosha:
SW: 232
CW: 225
GW: 220
Total Loss of 7 lbs!!
**Side note: Before our sodium uptick Ken's lowest weight this week was 261! Mine was 223!
Hope you are enjoying our weight loss journey!
Oh! Tonights supper = Salmon Patties and Steak Tomato "Pizzas" (I love South Beach diet recipes!)
Monday, September 20, 2010
OH a Monday
So I did FANTASTIC with my options over the weekend. I was very proud of myself to be around cornbread, tortilla chips, chocolate fountains with fruit, and baby shower cake and snub my nose at it all.
Then came potluck Monday today at work. Our boss lady is stepping down so that she can move on with school and become the awesome person she is destined to be, so it was our last team meeting with her. We decided to do a pot luck. I went to work with full intentions of being good. I brought deviled eggs and a black bean salsa that was both no carbs (err LOW carbs). However, I was weak and didn't keep up with my diet. I ate chips and dip, and lasagna, and carrot cake. And afterwards I was/am very disapointed in myself. So I will not be surprised if I am back up tomorrow on my week 1 weigh in. Maybe I will wait to "offically" weigh in on Wednesday morning.
Then came potluck Monday today at work. Our boss lady is stepping down so that she can move on with school and become the awesome person she is destined to be, so it was our last team meeting with her. We decided to do a pot luck. I went to work with full intentions of being good. I brought deviled eggs and a black bean salsa that was both no carbs (err LOW carbs). However, I was weak and didn't keep up with my diet. I ate chips and dip, and lasagna, and carrot cake. And afterwards I was/am very disapointed in myself. So I will not be surprised if I am back up tomorrow on my week 1 weigh in. Maybe I will wait to "offically" weigh in on Wednesday morning.
Friday, September 17, 2010
New Diet
So on Monday Ken went to the doctor and was told he had diabetes, he was told that he needs to lose 30 lbs before he sees him again (8 weeks) for that and other medical reasons. I figure that is an awesome way to help me lose weight too! So we are going on the "diet" the doctor put him on.
This isn't a "here's what you CAN eat" diet, but a "you CANNOT eat..." diet. Here is a list of food we cannot have:
NO fruit juice
NO cold cereals
NO rice
NO bread
NO pasta
I asked him about brown rice and whole wheat pastas and breads because you always here that those are better for you. He told us that they may be BETTER but still not what we need to have.
So, being the good wife I am (and sensible, why make 2 meals?) Ken and I started the "diet" on Tuesday.We had baked chicken and salad on Tuesday, Wednesday was chicken stir fry, I finally made it to the grocery store on Thursday and we had Lime Broiled Catfish and Asparagus (YUMM-O), and tonight I made Chicken Pepper Skillet. Tomorrow we have a meeting so we will eat at the meeting (potluck) and leftovers for supper. The rest of the week's menu sounds pretty tasty too:
Sunday: Salmon with lemon, capers & rosemary and california vegetables
Monday: Crockpot Chicken Paprika
Tuesday: Mediterranean Stuffed Chicken & Garbanzo Stir Fry
Wednesday: Salmon Patties & Tomato Pizzas
Thursday: Lemon Chicken StirFry
I'll have to get some more recipes, if anyone has any low carb chicken/fish recipes or low carb side dish recipes I would greatly appreciate them.
We have already started to see pounds shed from this and we haven't even reached the end of week 1 yet! I know that men lose faster than women, but I'm just sayin', seeing this, it's gonna suck mentally!!
Ken - Weighed at the Dr's at 276 - Tues morning weighed at 267 (probably water weight) - weight Fri morning was 261!
Tosh - Weighed Mon morning at 231 - Tues morning at 227 (again prob water weight) - weight Fri morning was 225 (3 more lbs to be at my lowest EVER since my surgery, btw)
Ken's goal weight is 245 by November 8th. (31lbs)
Tosha's goal weight is 200 by Thanksgiving (25lbs)
I will keep you updated on how we are doing as the time goes on!! I'm excited for this new journey in our lives together.
This isn't a "here's what you CAN eat" diet, but a "you CANNOT eat..." diet. Here is a list of food we cannot have:
NO fruit juice
NO cold cereals
NO rice
NO bread
NO pasta
I asked him about brown rice and whole wheat pastas and breads because you always here that those are better for you. He told us that they may be BETTER but still not what we need to have.
So, being the good wife I am (and sensible, why make 2 meals?) Ken and I started the "diet" on Tuesday.We had baked chicken and salad on Tuesday, Wednesday was chicken stir fry, I finally made it to the grocery store on Thursday and we had Lime Broiled Catfish and Asparagus (YUMM-O), and tonight I made Chicken Pepper Skillet. Tomorrow we have a meeting so we will eat at the meeting (potluck) and leftovers for supper. The rest of the week's menu sounds pretty tasty too:
Sunday: Salmon with lemon, capers & rosemary and california vegetables
Monday: Crockpot Chicken Paprika
Tuesday: Mediterranean Stuffed Chicken & Garbanzo Stir Fry
Wednesday: Salmon Patties & Tomato Pizzas
Thursday: Lemon Chicken StirFry
I'll have to get some more recipes, if anyone has any low carb chicken/fish recipes or low carb side dish recipes I would greatly appreciate them.
We have already started to see pounds shed from this and we haven't even reached the end of week 1 yet! I know that men lose faster than women, but I'm just sayin', seeing this, it's gonna suck mentally!!
Ken - Weighed at the Dr's at 276 - Tues morning weighed at 267 (probably water weight) - weight Fri morning was 261!
Tosh - Weighed Mon morning at 231 - Tues morning at 227 (again prob water weight) - weight Fri morning was 225 (3 more lbs to be at my lowest EVER since my surgery, btw)
Ken's goal weight is 245 by November 8th. (31lbs)
Tosha's goal weight is 200 by Thanksgiving (25lbs)
I will keep you updated on how we are doing as the time goes on!! I'm excited for this new journey in our lives together.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Not sure why this is on my heart
So I was thinking back on a past situation when I was younger that a good "godly" friend of mine in the church hurt me, I was about 18/19 and teetering on the edge anyways, but they pushed me over and for a long time, I didn't want to have anything to do with church "if that was what christians are like"
You hear that excuse (and YES it is an EXCUSE) so often nowadays. "Sister so and so did this and it hurt my feelings, I'm not going to go to that event because she may be there." "Brother so and so called me out on this and it was just wrong and not the right thing to do, so I'm going to stop going to church."
Really?! Why do we hurt ourselves, God, and our relationship with God because of other people? Why do we make it about the other people? Why do we let other humans who are flawed beyond all imagine control us? Why do we let OTHERS call the shots with what goes on between us and God?
Doing this only hurts yourself. So, you got your feelings hurt, or something was said, and you turn from church (and ultimately God). The other person (who may not have any idea they hurt you) asks God's forgiveness and KEEPS GOING AND GROWING IN GOD!! THEY are still being blessed!!!!! But you harbor those hateful feelings, and they grow and fester and make sores all over your heart and life, they cause you to be bitter and hateful, and turn from all Godly things to things of the world and you are now CURSED and MISERABLE in your life. And there are only 2 people hurt in this, you, and God, because you are not doing what He created you to do anymore.
Do it for God, not the people. Make YOUR relationship #1... NO ONE ELSE MATTERS!!!
I'm not sure that this is for anyone other than myself, but I knew I needed to type it out, so it's here. I know I needed it.
You hear that excuse (and YES it is an EXCUSE) so often nowadays. "Sister so and so did this and it hurt my feelings, I'm not going to go to that event because she may be there." "Brother so and so called me out on this and it was just wrong and not the right thing to do, so I'm going to stop going to church."
Really?! Why do we hurt ourselves, God, and our relationship with God because of other people? Why do we make it about the other people? Why do we let other humans who are flawed beyond all imagine control us? Why do we let OTHERS call the shots with what goes on between us and God?
Doing this only hurts yourself. So, you got your feelings hurt, or something was said, and you turn from church (and ultimately God). The other person (who may not have any idea they hurt you) asks God's forgiveness and KEEPS GOING AND GROWING IN GOD!! THEY are still being blessed!!!!! But you harbor those hateful feelings, and they grow and fester and make sores all over your heart and life, they cause you to be bitter and hateful, and turn from all Godly things to things of the world and you are now CURSED and MISERABLE in your life. And there are only 2 people hurt in this, you, and God, because you are not doing what He created you to do anymore.
Do it for God, not the people. Make YOUR relationship #1... NO ONE ELSE MATTERS!!!
I'm not sure that this is for anyone other than myself, but I knew I needed to type it out, so it's here. I know I needed it.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Day at the River
Today was filled with so much FUN!!! We got to the river early... the river is so beautiful early in the morning... if I could get Ken out of bed we'd go much more often in the early mornings!
The family all starts piling in, and we get the boat ready for the day... or rather Daddy did.
We spent the day skiing and tubing
Movie stars like Analia were there...
And water bugs like Keaton, Tyler, & Hunter too!
All in all it was a wonderful day!!!
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Boo hoo moments
So, I wasn't going to blog today, or tomorrow, because you've heard enough of my "boo hoo moments". But today has been hard so, might as well get it off my chest.
Tomorrow, if all things had worked out to plan (which they rarely do), my child (be it boy or girl) would have been 5 years old. I don't usually even remember about the due date, usually it's a week later and I'm going "oh yea..." I think I may be thinking about it as it would be a milestone. They would be starting school this year.
I know that God worked everything out the way it was supposed to, and for some reason, that baby did not need to be in this world longer than 8 weeks.
God has put so much joy into my life around this time. My daddy's birthday is on the same day, my nephew Keaton will be 4 just a week later on the 10th! And today, my sister in law got to see a picture of her "beaner" who is 8 weeks today.
I know my day will come. And it will be a glorious one and GOD will get all the glory!!
“The steadfast of mind You will keep in perfect peace, Because he trusts in You. Isaiah 26:3
Tomorrow, if all things had worked out to plan (which they rarely do), my child (be it boy or girl) would have been 5 years old. I don't usually even remember about the due date, usually it's a week later and I'm going "oh yea..." I think I may be thinking about it as it would be a milestone. They would be starting school this year.
I know that God worked everything out the way it was supposed to, and for some reason, that baby did not need to be in this world longer than 8 weeks.
God has put so much joy into my life around this time. My daddy's birthday is on the same day, my nephew Keaton will be 4 just a week later on the 10th! And today, my sister in law got to see a picture of her "beaner" who is 8 weeks today.
I know my day will come. And it will be a glorious one and GOD will get all the glory!!
“The steadfast of mind You will keep in perfect peace, Because he trusts in You. Isaiah 26:3
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