Even if the healing doesn't come

I have had a song running through my head that has really made me think this afternoon – actually it has been on and off for a couple of days – but the lyrics say “Even if the healing doesn’t come; And life falls apart; And dreams are still undone; You are God, You are good; Forever faithful One; Even if the healing doesn’t come.”  I had to think – do I really feel that way?  Even if I never get pregnant?  Or if I don’t get pregnant this month.  Can I still say He is good?  I don’t always feel like the answer to that question is yes.  Shocking = I know.  But I don’t.  I get angry and demanding and upset – I’m human.  But the reality of the matter is – YES – Even if I NEVER conceive – Even if I NEVER hold my baby in my arms – He is GOOD and FAITHFUL in all that He does. 

The rest of the song goes on to say “You’re still the great and mighty one; We trust You always; You’re working all things for our good; We’ll sing Your praise”    -- to me this means that even if I don’t understand He is working all things for my good – as a child of God He is fighting tooth and nail to help me overcome myself and the sin in the world to give me what I desire – BUT – He sees the whole picture I only wish I could see.

And the song ends with “You are God and we will bless you; As the good and faithful One; You are God and we will bless you; Even if the healing doesn’t come.”  I have to start looking at my blessings more than my “holes”.  I am not sick – my family is not sick – Both my husband and I have a job, we can pay our bills, we have a roof over our heads, cars to drive, and food on our table.  I am loved by my friends and family more than I can even imagine.  I AM BLESSED!  I promise to start focusing on praising God – and I am trusting that will take up my time focused on my selfishness right now.