I
have to keep reminding myself where I have come from in my weight loss journey,
because it gets so sad and depressing that I never seen one-derland after my
gastric bypass surgery.
A
lot of people ask me if I think the gastric bypass was a good decision. Aside from the complications I had, my over
all resounding answer to that question is YES, YES, and one more YES! I mean, I
lost 120lbs from July 2007 to November 2007.
However, my one regret is that I was not fully committed. Whether it was my age, maturity level, or
pure out laziness, I’m not 100% sure. But I wish that I had not pushed my
limits... which in turn, stretched my stomach back out. I maintained my weight loss of 120 lbs
(bouncing between 220-225) for a couple of years, and then started gaining in
2008. By 2009 (my wedding) I was up to
260! I was so disappointed in myself, but I somehow got the gumption (If you
know me you know it takes a LOT to motivate me, especially if I feel hopeless)
and lost all of the extra weight and even a few extra pounds! In 2010-11 I lost
and maintained at around 215-220.
However,
the past year (12months) I have been struggling with a lot of mental
challenges, 4 years of infertility had finally taken its toll. I have been down and depressed, frustrated,
angry, and rebellious at times, and in my would that translates into... you
guessed it, FOOD. I have gained back up to 245 and I am
miserable. I have gained more confidence
and strength in exercising, though I am not consistent. I have to do something.
So,
a couple weeks ago, after talking to a girl I know, I decided to try the HCG
diet, after some research I learned that most of the stuff sold in the stores
does not even contain the HCG hormone, so I forked out the extra money and
ordered it online. I have a separate
blog set up for this diet specifically, that will get pretty boring I suppose,
as I am planning on blogging as consistently as my life will allow me small
details like what I ate that day, how many calories I intake, what my weight
and measurements are, and probably even photos . . . ehh... may keep the photos
for my personal use, don’t want to scare anyone (it is purty skerry). You can keep up with this journey (Round 1
will be approximately 6 weeks) by visiting: http://toshanahcgdiet.blogspot.com/
Wish
me luck!
