So, I’ve been thinking a lot the past couple days. Technically, I think a lot more than that, but one subject in particular has been on my mind the past couple days. I think that is the better way to put that. That one subject? A baby. Now, if you ask my husband that is on my mind a lot more than just the past couple days.
But I have found myself asking, “Is there something wrong with me?” or “When will it be my time?” There has been a couple times I questioned God, “What did I do wrong to cause you not to give me my hearts desires?” It’s not like I’m asking for a million dollars and a shiny new car! (But if that’s Your will God, I won’t stop you!) I just want to be like most other women on the face of this planet and become pregnant. I mean, you hear about all the people who don’t want children that become pregnant… why them and not me?
So… God responded to this today. Maybe not audibly, but I’m sure He responded just the same. I picked up my devotional this afternoon to read while I’m at lunch. And the scripture of the day was out of “The Message” 2 Peter 3:9, “God isn’t late with his promise as some measure lateness…” WHOA! All I could think was “Okay God… I’m listening” (as I had been pitying myself the moment I opened the book so it was fresh on my mind!). Verse 8 falls n like with that, “With God, one day is as good as a thousand years, a thousand years as a day” In other words, God timing may not (and probably will not) add up specifically with our timing. (Please God don’t wait a thousand years though)
So, where am I at now? In short, in need of a lot of prayer. I know in my head that it just must not be God’s timing, that God may have other plans for me first, or in replace of. And as He so graciously reminded me, I need to be patient. However, YOU try convincing my heart of that… because I can’t get it to understand. The desire is so much sometimes. I pray about it on a daily (sometimes multiple times a day) basis. It is hard seeing pregnant women (there are 2 million of them at work it seems like) and wondering what they’ve done right, that I haven’t (other than the obvious!)… I know I shouldn’t judge myself by them, but again, try telling my heart that.
I suppose I have said all that to say this, pray for me. Pray that God will help me understand whatever His will may hold. Pray that I won’t struggle. Pray that I see the joy in whatever life may bring. I know that God promises to give us the desires of our hearts, however, I also was reminded it is not in our timing. So I need to rely on this as well.
Thank you in advance for your prayers.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Saturday, February 20, 2010
random weekend thoughts
Disclaimer: There is about to be lots of ideas, and just random thoughts plugged into this blog. I'll try not to let them get too jumbled.**
I think some of the girls at work (maybe the guys too, who knows) are going to join the McGuire's Saint Patty's Day 5k. I'm excited about it to be completely honest with you, I'm sure that none of us will be running it. We will have 1 hour to walk 3.1 miles in Downtown Pensacola. I think it will be challenging and fun. Now Renee and I (and whoever wants to join) have to find somewhere to practice, so we don't have to walk in a circle around PJC track for 13 times in a row!! I thought about walking up the sidewalks on Dogwood Drive... walk 1.5 miles up and then back down. And then of course there is the bike trail... which leads into my next thought...
I want a bicycle. I think it would be fun to go riding down the bike trail this spring or in the evenings in the summer (when it starts getting a little cooler at night). But Ken won't go riding with me, and it just doesn't seem as fun by myself. I know I cannot have him do everything with me, but I don't know anyone else who would want to go. However... (next thought)
At the church they have this awesome thing going on called "Fit for the Kingdom" on Thursday nights (at 6:30 if anyone wants to join). Last week they played volleyball (I wasn't able to go because had other plans) and this week we are going to do TaeBo. The awesome lady heading it up, Elisa, said that she is hoping to keep changing the exercise up so people don't get bored with it. She said if we all get something we like to do a lot we would do that though. It sounds like a lot of fun, and another thing I like about it, is it will build relationships with the women of the church. We really need each other to stand with. (next thought)...
I've really been praying lately that God will bring me a close friend that is there that I can relay scriptures back and forth, that we can hold each other up, and be there for each other, spiritually and physically. I need that close "God" friend... ya know? I have some awesome friends, don't get me wrong (and please don't anyone get offended by this, I'm not saying my now friends are not good enough), I just need a different friend on a different level. All of your friends feed you (for lack of a better term, leave it too a big girl to use a food analogy)in different ways. You have one friend that you go shopping with, another that you ask to help you with projects, another that you go to lunch with (there goes that food again ha!), and another you can call at 3am when you had the weirdest dream. You get the picture. I don't have a LOT of friends, but my friends expand these categories, and I have others. But I have realized lately that I don't have that "spiritual" friend that I can say "Can you believe how awesome God is? Let me tell you what he's shown me in the scriptures today!!" I want that! So I've been praying God will send me that friend that HE places in my life, because if He isn't the one to put her there, then she doesn't belong in my life and it wouldn't work.
Completely seperate thought that doesn't tie in or flow from the others. I totally have baby fever. I have so many friends who are pregnant, a lot of aquaintences and people I know on facebook. And of course we have the newest addition coming into our family, Chris and Beckys sweet bundle of joy who should be here next month!!! I want kids so badly (I'll start with just one though please lol). and I feel like time is just ticking away, I don't want to be 60 years old going to my child's graduation (not that there is anything wrong with that, just not something I want). I find my self envying other people's morning sickness for goodness sake's (that is definitely a bad case of baby fever)!! I know that we shouldn't envy other people, and anytime Ken and I talk about it, we aren't financially ready yet, but I'm a firm believer in "you never are, you make the needed adjustments when it happens". I have found myself lately looking at baby stuff online, wondering what we would pick out, how it would all work. I know that God has a plan and purpose for my life, and in His timing it will all work out. But that is HARD to put into action. I also know that He knows the desires of my heart, and I believe that he will be faithful to answer those, it may not be the answer I want, in the way that I want it... but I'm willing to pursue other paths... as soon as I knew I had to. I know Ken and I haven't been married that long, so I'm not worried about the "can I or can't I?" deal yet (and God could change the can't anyways if that was His will). But I'm ready God... bless me with a child to love. :)
Okay... I think I have ranted enough tonight. A lot of random thoughts from walking to working out to babies... but I have a lot of randomness going on in my head.
I think some of the girls at work (maybe the guys too, who knows) are going to join the McGuire's Saint Patty's Day 5k. I'm excited about it to be completely honest with you, I'm sure that none of us will be running it. We will have 1 hour to walk 3.1 miles in Downtown Pensacola. I think it will be challenging and fun. Now Renee and I (and whoever wants to join) have to find somewhere to practice, so we don't have to walk in a circle around PJC track for 13 times in a row!! I thought about walking up the sidewalks on Dogwood Drive... walk 1.5 miles up and then back down. And then of course there is the bike trail... which leads into my next thought...
I want a bicycle. I think it would be fun to go riding down the bike trail this spring or in the evenings in the summer (when it starts getting a little cooler at night). But Ken won't go riding with me, and it just doesn't seem as fun by myself. I know I cannot have him do everything with me, but I don't know anyone else who would want to go. However... (next thought)
At the church they have this awesome thing going on called "Fit for the Kingdom" on Thursday nights (at 6:30 if anyone wants to join). Last week they played volleyball (I wasn't able to go because had other plans) and this week we are going to do TaeBo. The awesome lady heading it up, Elisa, said that she is hoping to keep changing the exercise up so people don't get bored with it. She said if we all get something we like to do a lot we would do that though. It sounds like a lot of fun, and another thing I like about it, is it will build relationships with the women of the church. We really need each other to stand with. (next thought)...
I've really been praying lately that God will bring me a close friend that is there that I can relay scriptures back and forth, that we can hold each other up, and be there for each other, spiritually and physically. I need that close "God" friend... ya know? I have some awesome friends, don't get me wrong (and please don't anyone get offended by this, I'm not saying my now friends are not good enough), I just need a different friend on a different level. All of your friends feed you (for lack of a better term, leave it too a big girl to use a food analogy)in different ways. You have one friend that you go shopping with, another that you ask to help you with projects, another that you go to lunch with (there goes that food again ha!), and another you can call at 3am when you had the weirdest dream. You get the picture. I don't have a LOT of friends, but my friends expand these categories, and I have others. But I have realized lately that I don't have that "spiritual" friend that I can say "Can you believe how awesome God is? Let me tell you what he's shown me in the scriptures today!!" I want that! So I've been praying God will send me that friend that HE places in my life, because if He isn't the one to put her there, then she doesn't belong in my life and it wouldn't work.
Completely seperate thought that doesn't tie in or flow from the others. I totally have baby fever. I have so many friends who are pregnant, a lot of aquaintences and people I know on facebook. And of course we have the newest addition coming into our family, Chris and Beckys sweet bundle of joy who should be here next month!!! I want kids so badly (I'll start with just one though please lol). and I feel like time is just ticking away, I don't want to be 60 years old going to my child's graduation (not that there is anything wrong with that, just not something I want). I find my self envying other people's morning sickness for goodness sake's (that is definitely a bad case of baby fever)!! I know that we shouldn't envy other people, and anytime Ken and I talk about it, we aren't financially ready yet, but I'm a firm believer in "you never are, you make the needed adjustments when it happens". I have found myself lately looking at baby stuff online, wondering what we would pick out, how it would all work. I know that God has a plan and purpose for my life, and in His timing it will all work out. But that is HARD to put into action. I also know that He knows the desires of my heart, and I believe that he will be faithful to answer those, it may not be the answer I want, in the way that I want it... but I'm willing to pursue other paths... as soon as I knew I had to. I know Ken and I haven't been married that long, so I'm not worried about the "can I or can't I?" deal yet (and God could change the can't anyways if that was His will). But I'm ready God... bless me with a child to love. :)
Okay... I think I have ranted enough tonight. A lot of random thoughts from walking to working out to babies... but I have a lot of randomness going on in my head.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Devotion Day
I wanted to share another of my devotions out of "Daily Steps for GodChicks" by Holly Wagner. This one really touched me and I feel like there are many other people, though it's directed at women, this does not only apply to women!
'"And I praise You because of the wonderful way You created me. Everything Yu do is marvelous! Of this I have no doubt. With Your own eyes You saw my body being formed. Even before I was born, You had written in Your book everything I would do." Psalm 139:14, CEV
I love this verse. Can't you just see King David looking in the mirror and thanking God for the magnificent way he was made? While I do smile when I read it, it is a powerful truth. If more of us had a clear picture of how wonderfully we were made, then perhaps we would spend less time trying to be someone else.
There is only on you. You are an absolute... one of a kind... unique creation of God Himself. No one else can do what He has called you to do. I wonder if we aren't slapping Him in the face when we desire to be anyone other than outselves. You are giving your best when you are being YOU - not what you THINK people what you to be - but who you actually ARE.
You have got to get good at looking in the mirror and liking the girl you see. You are wonderfully made... never forget that! When God made you, He threw out the mold. He does not make mistakes. You are one of a kind, precious and priceless. Your worth is beyond compare.
So head on over to the mirror right now, look at your wonderfully unique face, and say, "Wow... thank You, God, for making me just the way You did!!" And if you are really feeling brave (or even if you're not!) give yourself a little whistle... go ahead!! "
'"And I praise You because of the wonderful way You created me. Everything Yu do is marvelous! Of this I have no doubt. With Your own eyes You saw my body being formed. Even before I was born, You had written in Your book everything I would do." Psalm 139:14, CEV
I love this verse. Can't you just see King David looking in the mirror and thanking God for the magnificent way he was made? While I do smile when I read it, it is a powerful truth. If more of us had a clear picture of how wonderfully we were made, then perhaps we would spend less time trying to be someone else.
There is only on you. You are an absolute... one of a kind... unique creation of God Himself. No one else can do what He has called you to do. I wonder if we aren't slapping Him in the face when we desire to be anyone other than outselves. You are giving your best when you are being YOU - not what you THINK people what you to be - but who you actually ARE.
You have got to get good at looking in the mirror and liking the girl you see. You are wonderfully made... never forget that! When God made you, He threw out the mold. He does not make mistakes. You are one of a kind, precious and priceless. Your worth is beyond compare.
So head on over to the mirror right now, look at your wonderfully unique face, and say, "Wow... thank You, God, for making me just the way You did!!" And if you are really feeling brave (or even if you're not!) give yourself a little whistle... go ahead!! "
Saturday, February 13, 2010
It's a good day after all....
This morning was a DISASTER!! My sister and I have been planning our sister in law's baby shower the past month... but for whatever reason (maybe the fact that I am my mother's daughter in every way) I procrastinated and went shopping for everything LAST NIGHT!!! Including the cake, which was by all means my fault. However, I absolutely LOVE Publix cakes, they are fantastic so off to Publix we went. Yes, my loving husband has put up with me all night last night and today (though I know it was a struggle). We found a good cake, all baby-ish and cutesy, and have it be our luck, no one is in the cake department, I had to go get icing to write something on it myself!
So that is where my bad morning kicks off... the writing STINKS!!! Totally!! And I was kicking myself for it. Instead of handing it to God, and say "I did my best" I really let it get to me, and the day slid down from there... Poor Ken even made reference to my head spinning around... which didn't help his case any, but he didn't seem to get that.
However, on the long trip to Jay, since Ken and I were not talking (for sake of not killing each other) I had a chance to pray and give it over to God, and I have to say, by the time that we made it to the church, I was at peace with everything. Thank goodness because then the fun begins! Lots to do ....
Decorate
Greet People
Open Gifts
and Cleaning Up
And I am by no means complaining, because it was fabulous. I was able to spend time with my family, love on my nephews, feel my niece moving around, and giving to someone else. I can honestly say, the one thing that can cheer me up aside from everything else going on in my life, is giving. It is such a refreshing feeling.
It was so nice to see Chris there and just as excited as Becky about their new bundle of joy. I cannot wait to meet my niece, Analia. She is already touching hearts, God has GREAT THINGS in store for her. Just like Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"
So that is where my bad morning kicks off... the writing STINKS!!! Totally!! And I was kicking myself for it. Instead of handing it to God, and say "I did my best" I really let it get to me, and the day slid down from there... Poor Ken even made reference to my head spinning around... which didn't help his case any, but he didn't seem to get that.
However, on the long trip to Jay, since Ken and I were not talking (for sake of not killing each other) I had a chance to pray and give it over to God, and I have to say, by the time that we made it to the church, I was at peace with everything. Thank goodness because then the fun begins! Lots to do ....
Decorate
Greet People
Open Gifts
and Cleaning Up
And I am by no means complaining, because it was fabulous. I was able to spend time with my family, love on my nephews, feel my niece moving around, and giving to someone else. I can honestly say, the one thing that can cheer me up aside from everything else going on in my life, is giving. It is such a refreshing feeling.
It was so nice to see Chris there and just as excited as Becky about their new bundle of joy. I cannot wait to meet my niece, Analia. She is already touching hearts, God has GREAT THINGS in store for her. Just like Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
My momma always said...
My mom has had a saying since I cannot remember when, it's one of those you know there is truth behind it, but you still have to roll your eyes at it sometimes because you hear it so much. She says, "Be careful of your words, you can speak something into existence, they have power!" Now normally this is said to someone (usually one of us children) when we say something negatively. And it is a wonderful reminder not to speak negatively about someone else, and even more so you shouldn't speak negatively about ourselves.
It is so easy to do something rashly, then hit yourself in the forehead and say, "Doh! I'm such the idiot" But we shouldn't say things like that, even if we mean it sarcastically, we may be speaking something into existence in our lives, it may be at that very moment you are breaking down your self esteem wall, one brick at a time. And I have learned that my self esteem wall doesn't have a whole lot of bricks in it to begin with! It does not take many negative thoughts or harmful words (even meant innocently) to have your self esteem down to nothing at all.
We don't know how many bricks in the "self esteem wall" our friends, neighbors, or the homeless guy on the street has left. Remember, your POWERFUL words, may be the destruction of someone's last brick.
I leave you with two scriptures to back this up. I pray that I follow the first one and stay away from the death in words of the second.
"Wise words satisfy like a good meal;
the right words bring satisfaction."
Proverbs 18:20
"The tongue can bring death or life;
those who love to talk will reap the consequences."
Proverbs 18:21
It is so easy to do something rashly, then hit yourself in the forehead and say, "Doh! I'm such the idiot" But we shouldn't say things like that, even if we mean it sarcastically, we may be speaking something into existence in our lives, it may be at that very moment you are breaking down your self esteem wall, one brick at a time. And I have learned that my self esteem wall doesn't have a whole lot of bricks in it to begin with! It does not take many negative thoughts or harmful words (even meant innocently) to have your self esteem down to nothing at all.
We don't know how many bricks in the "self esteem wall" our friends, neighbors, or the homeless guy on the street has left. Remember, your POWERFUL words, may be the destruction of someone's last brick.
I leave you with two scriptures to back this up. I pray that I follow the first one and stay away from the death in words of the second.
"Wise words satisfy like a good meal;
the right words bring satisfaction."
Proverbs 18:20
"The tongue can bring death or life;
those who love to talk will reap the consequences."
Proverbs 18:21
Sunday, February 7, 2010
My husband is another year older today...
I thank God daily for knowing the plans He has for us, and thank Him for the fact that they are plans for us to prosper and to bring us hope!! It is such a wonderful feeling to know that there is a God up there that cares for me that much, that He is looking down and cheering me on in my life! No matter if I was the only sinful person on this earth, that Jesus would have come down and died for me... just little ol' me!!! What an awesome feeling.
I know that has nothing to do with my title, but in a way it does, I know that God put Ken in my life to help me prosper and I thank Him for that. Ken turned 33 today :) I tease him about being my "old man". He is so wonderful to me! We had a wonderful birthday dinner for him last night at the Blackwater Bistro (which is an AWESOME resturaunt by the way). It was great getting together with friends and family! We definitely should do it more often.
I thank God for blessing my husband with another year, and praise Him for the prosperous things He has in store for us this year! I know that Ken will be finishing his Masters Degree this year, and who knows what else God has in store, but whatever it is I will give HIM all the praise!!!
I know that has nothing to do with my title, but in a way it does, I know that God put Ken in my life to help me prosper and I thank Him for that. Ken turned 33 today :) I tease him about being my "old man". He is so wonderful to me! We had a wonderful birthday dinner for him last night at the Blackwater Bistro (which is an AWESOME resturaunt by the way). It was great getting together with friends and family! We definitely should do it more often.
I thank God for blessing my husband with another year, and praise Him for the prosperous things He has in store for us this year! I know that Ken will be finishing his Masters Degree this year, and who knows what else God has in store, but whatever it is I will give HIM all the praise!!!
Saturday, February 6, 2010
My battle with Windows 7...
...actually taught me something! I am stubborn. Yes, yes, I know some of you are thinking, "I already knew that". It's true, it's true I tell you! So what happened that has proven this fact? I have had my Windows 7 upgrade disk for a couple weeks now, when I attempted to upgrade it told me I would have to delete some ATI installer thing and my itunes. I was okay with the ATI thingy, because as you can probably tell I have no clue what it is. But my itunes?!?! I had just purchased 3 new CDs and was not willing to give it up. So I start the upgrade without deleteing anything. It says it may not work properly, nothing about not upgrading correctly... I try to upgrade the first night, after 3 hours it is still sitting at 18% complete, I'm very frustrated. So, I turn off the computer and tell myself it's the computer I'll try later. . . I try 2 more times with the same results. What is that saying ... something about insainty being doing the same thing and expecting different results? Finally tonight I decide to copy my music onto CDs and delete the things it tells me to delete. Approximately 2 hours later... TA-DA!! Windows 7 is successfully uploaded. I decided to go ahead and download itunes back to my computer, and all of my stuff is STILL THERE!!! I was stubborn for nothing! I could have had this done last week!!
Friday, February 5, 2010
On to another day
The weekend didn't start off the best. Ken and I were both sick to our stomachs today. He is determined it is the diet we've halfway been on this week, but I'm leaning more towards it being the half that has been off the diet this week! He has done really good on the diet (when we are on) and has lost weight. I am very proud of him. I have lost some, not as much, but I'm still proud of me too! Considering where I came from 3 years ago its a LOT.
It is going to be a busy weekend too! Ken's birthday is Sunday, he will be the big ol' 33. I like picking on him about being my old grey headed man. He's a good sport about it. We are going to have a family dinner for him Saturday night, I still have to get a bag and tissue for his presents, which I'm totally stoked about :) Can't tell you about them yet, because he might surprise me and actually read this haha.
We also have to go and get things for my sister in laws baby shower next weekend! I'm really excited about that. The sisters are throwing it in a joint effort and I have some food and party supplies I need to go get before then and it's either this weekdend or rushing last minute next Friday... I hate rushing so I'm shooting for this weekend.
Then of course we have church on Sunday which will be awesome as always!
It is going to be a busy weekend too! Ken's birthday is Sunday, he will be the big ol' 33. I like picking on him about being my old grey headed man. He's a good sport about it. We are going to have a family dinner for him Saturday night, I still have to get a bag and tissue for his presents, which I'm totally stoked about :) Can't tell you about them yet, because he might surprise me and actually read this haha.
We also have to go and get things for my sister in laws baby shower next weekend! I'm really excited about that. The sisters are throwing it in a joint effort and I have some food and party supplies I need to go get before then and it's either this weekdend or rushing last minute next Friday... I hate rushing so I'm shooting for this weekend.
Then of course we have church on Sunday which will be awesome as always!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Thankful
I ordered a devotional last week, thought that it would be a good step in my daily "get close to God" routine. Which is really rockin' if anyone wanted to know :) Anyways, it has worked, though I'm only on day 3 of 90 I made a wonderful choice in devotionals "Daily Steps for God Chicks" because the first part of it actually walks you through devotions and scriptures on WHY you should do a devotional and get closer to God. Day one was about bringing your requests and prayers to God in the morning, day two was about not worrying or fretting to turn your worries into prayers, and today was about devoting yourself.
The scripture for today was Colossians 4:2 "Devote yourselves to prayer with an alert mind and a thankful heart."
The meaning of Devote - v. to give or apply (one's time, attention, or self) entirely to a particular activity, pursuit, cause, or person.
This made a lot of things run through my head, first off, the scripture... having an alert mind before 9am is a HARD thing for me!! Most people who know me, know that I'm not a morning person and 50 cups of coffee wouldn't make any difference at all! Used to be I could pop open a coke or pepsi and be okay in the mornings, but since no more carbonated drinks you're just out of luck if you have to deal with me in the mornings!! But, as I have been getting up and spending time in the Word and prayer (even before my devotional) I have found myself being in a much better mood in the morning... and being ALERT when I wake up! The second thing that jumped out in the scripture was praying with a thankful heart. I know so many days I come to God with more of a "begging heart", my prayers consist of "please do this, please heal this person, please help me get through one more day, please please please please!!!" When we should be coming to God thanking him... "God, THANK YOU for my health, my friends and family and their health. Thank you for my job and the money it provides to keep us in a home and food on our table." Then remind Him of the desires of our heart. "God, touch my family, save the ones who are not with you, bring wellness and healing into the ones who are sick, etc." I say remind because God already knows the desires of our hearts, He just wants us to bring them to Him. He wants us to know that we need Him, what better way than to remind us to rely on him and bring our prayers and petitions to him! The last thing that jumped out to me about this devotion was the meaning of devote... to GIVE of one's time, you cannot sit down with your bible or to pray and say "Oh man, I have 5 minutes, I hope God is listening, because I'd really rather be doing ______." to give is to give FREELY not grudgingly. Not saying that God will not hear you in your 5 minutes, but you are definitely causing "static on the phone line" between you and Him if your heart is not in the right place. My prayer today was thankful for all my friends and family and everything that God has provided for me. I pray that God continues to work in and through me in everything that I do and help me to do it was a devoted grateful heart. I know I'm not always chipper and happy, that I can be snappy and mean, but I need God to help me with that. I need to rely on Him!
The scripture for today was Colossians 4:2 "Devote yourselves to prayer with an alert mind and a thankful heart."
The meaning of Devote - v. to give or apply (one's time, attention, or self) entirely to a particular activity, pursuit, cause, or person.
This made a lot of things run through my head, first off, the scripture... having an alert mind before 9am is a HARD thing for me!! Most people who know me, know that I'm not a morning person and 50 cups of coffee wouldn't make any difference at all! Used to be I could pop open a coke or pepsi and be okay in the mornings, but since no more carbonated drinks you're just out of luck if you have to deal with me in the mornings!! But, as I have been getting up and spending time in the Word and prayer (even before my devotional) I have found myself being in a much better mood in the morning... and being ALERT when I wake up! The second thing that jumped out in the scripture was praying with a thankful heart. I know so many days I come to God with more of a "begging heart", my prayers consist of "please do this, please heal this person, please help me get through one more day, please please please please!!!" When we should be coming to God thanking him... "God, THANK YOU for my health, my friends and family and their health. Thank you for my job and the money it provides to keep us in a home and food on our table." Then remind Him of the desires of our heart. "God, touch my family, save the ones who are not with you, bring wellness and healing into the ones who are sick, etc." I say remind because God already knows the desires of our hearts, He just wants us to bring them to Him. He wants us to know that we need Him, what better way than to remind us to rely on him and bring our prayers and petitions to him! The last thing that jumped out to me about this devotion was the meaning of devote... to GIVE of one's time, you cannot sit down with your bible or to pray and say "Oh man, I have 5 minutes, I hope God is listening, because I'd really rather be doing ______." to give is to give FREELY not grudgingly. Not saying that God will not hear you in your 5 minutes, but you are definitely causing "static on the phone line" between you and Him if your heart is not in the right place. My prayer today was thankful for all my friends and family and everything that God has provided for me. I pray that God continues to work in and through me in everything that I do and help me to do it was a devoted grateful heart. I know I'm not always chipper and happy, that I can be snappy and mean, but I need God to help me with that. I need to rely on Him!
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Catch Up!
So, I'm new to this whole blog thing. I think it may be a good thing to do this so that people who want to can keep up with the going on's in my life and the thoughts going through my head. I will give you fair warning you may not always want to know these things as they can sometimes be very confusing to even me!
Me and mine...
Ken and I got married on October 24, 2009. At this time, I gained a new mom (Arlene) and dad (Lee), sister (Amanda) and brother in law (Ben), and niece (Aiyana) and nephew (Dakota). Ken on the other hand gained a much larger family haha. Mom, dad, Jennifer, Travis, Keaton, Tyler, Hunter, Chris, Becky, Analia (on the way), and Michael!
Ken is still going to school, he is working on his Masters of Business degree and should be done with that by the end of this year. I am going back to school this summer after getting a loan to help pay for it, though it would have been a lot better to have a grant pay for it!
We are both very involved with the Florida Tribe of Cherokee Indians (check us out at www.floridacherokee.com). In the tribe we teach and learn things about the Cherokee such as language, crafts, arts, etc. Ken is the chief (Uku) and does wonders working with people to do the best for everyone. Just recently we spent some time with a soroity in Pensacola to teach them about the Cherokee arts and crafts. We will be spending some time soon with kids from 4H teaching them how to make corn husk dolls soon. We plan on being part of the Blackwater Arts & Crafts and Milton Scratch Ankle.
We attend church at Milton First Assembly of God. This year I have decided to turn back to my Jesus 100%, I have always toyed with it, choicing Him when it was most convenient, and have recently realized that it was crazy and only hurting myself and my loved ones to be that way. My Jesus DIED for me! How wonderful is it that He would do something like that for someone as lowly and undeserving as me! I struggled for a little while with fear... I was so scared that now that I got my life in line and ready to live for Him that my life would end, and I didn't want to die, I had wasted too much time already. But I have learned to give my worries to God in prayers. One of my scriptures to live by is "For God did not give me a spirit of fear, but of power, and love, and a sound mind".
I think that about catches us up for now! Will post again soon! Maybe pictures from Ken's upcoming birthday dinner!!
Me and mine...
Ken and I got married on October 24, 2009. At this time, I gained a new mom (Arlene) and dad (Lee), sister (Amanda) and brother in law (Ben), and niece (Aiyana) and nephew (Dakota). Ken on the other hand gained a much larger family haha. Mom, dad, Jennifer, Travis, Keaton, Tyler, Hunter, Chris, Becky, Analia (on the way), and Michael!
Ken is still going to school, he is working on his Masters of Business degree and should be done with that by the end of this year. I am going back to school this summer after getting a loan to help pay for it, though it would have been a lot better to have a grant pay for it!
We are both very involved with the Florida Tribe of Cherokee Indians (check us out at www.floridacherokee.com). In the tribe we teach and learn things about the Cherokee such as language, crafts, arts, etc. Ken is the chief (Uku) and does wonders working with people to do the best for everyone. Just recently we spent some time with a soroity in Pensacola to teach them about the Cherokee arts and crafts. We will be spending some time soon with kids from 4H teaching them how to make corn husk dolls soon. We plan on being part of the Blackwater Arts & Crafts and Milton Scratch Ankle.
We attend church at Milton First Assembly of God. This year I have decided to turn back to my Jesus 100%, I have always toyed with it, choicing Him when it was most convenient, and have recently realized that it was crazy and only hurting myself and my loved ones to be that way. My Jesus DIED for me! How wonderful is it that He would do something like that for someone as lowly and undeserving as me! I struggled for a little while with fear... I was so scared that now that I got my life in line and ready to live for Him that my life would end, and I didn't want to die, I had wasted too much time already. But I have learned to give my worries to God in prayers. One of my scriptures to live by is "For God did not give me a spirit of fear, but of power, and love, and a sound mind".
I think that about catches us up for now! Will post again soon! Maybe pictures from Ken's upcoming birthday dinner!!
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