random weekend thoughts

Disclaimer: There is about to be lots of ideas, and just random thoughts plugged into this blog. I'll try not to let them get too jumbled.**

I think some of the girls at work (maybe the guys too, who knows) are going to join the McGuire's Saint Patty's Day 5k. I'm excited about it to be completely honest with you, I'm sure that none of us will be running it. We will have 1 hour to walk 3.1 miles in Downtown Pensacola. I think it will be challenging and fun. Now Renee and I (and whoever wants to join) have to find somewhere to practice, so we don't have to walk in a circle around PJC track for 13 times in a row!! I thought about walking up the sidewalks on Dogwood Drive... walk 1.5 miles up and then back down. And then of course there is the bike trail... which leads into my next thought...

I want a bicycle. I think it would be fun to go riding down the bike trail this spring or in the evenings in the summer (when it starts getting a little cooler at night). But Ken won't go riding with me, and it just doesn't seem as fun by myself. I know I cannot have him do everything with me, but I don't know anyone else who would want to go. However... (next thought)

At the church they have this awesome thing going on called "Fit for the Kingdom" on Thursday nights (at 6:30 if anyone wants to join). Last week they played volleyball (I wasn't able to go because had other plans) and this week we are going to do TaeBo. The awesome lady heading it up, Elisa, said that she is hoping to keep changing the exercise up so people don't get bored with it. She said if we all get something we like to do a lot we would do that though. It sounds like a lot of fun, and another thing I like about it, is it will build relationships with the women of the church. We really need each other to stand with. (next thought)...

I've really been praying lately that God will bring me a close friend that is there that I can relay scriptures back and forth, that we can hold each other up, and be there for each other, spiritually and physically. I need that close "God" friend... ya know? I have some awesome friends, don't get me wrong (and please don't anyone get offended by this, I'm not saying my now friends are not good enough), I just need a different friend on a different level. All of your friends feed you (for lack of a better term, leave it too a big girl to use a food analogy)in different ways. You have one friend that you go shopping with, another that you ask to help you with projects, another that you go to lunch with (there goes that food again ha!), and another you can call at 3am when you had the weirdest dream. You get the picture. I don't have a LOT of friends, but my friends expand these categories, and I have others. But I have realized lately that I don't have that "spiritual" friend that I can say "Can you believe how awesome God is? Let me tell you what he's shown me in the scriptures today!!" I want that! So I've been praying God will send me that friend that HE places in my life, because if He isn't the one to put her there, then she doesn't belong in my life and it wouldn't work.

Completely seperate thought that doesn't tie in or flow from the others. I totally have baby fever. I have so many friends who are pregnant, a lot of aquaintences and people I know on facebook. And of course we have the newest addition coming into our family, Chris and Beckys sweet bundle of joy who should be here next month!!! I want kids so badly (I'll start with just one though please lol). and I feel like time is just ticking away, I don't want to be 60 years old going to my child's graduation (not that there is anything wrong with that, just not something I want). I find my self envying other people's morning sickness for goodness sake's (that is definitely a bad case of baby fever)!! I know that we shouldn't envy other people, and anytime Ken and I talk about it, we aren't financially ready yet, but I'm a firm believer in "you never are, you make the needed adjustments when it happens". I have found myself lately looking at baby stuff online, wondering what we would pick out, how it would all work. I know that God has a plan and purpose for my life, and in His timing it will all work out. But that is HARD to put into action. I also know that He knows the desires of my heart, and I believe that he will be faithful to answer those, it may not be the answer I want, in the way that I want it... but I'm willing to pursue other paths... as soon as I knew I had to. I know Ken and I haven't been married that long, so I'm not worried about the "can I or can't I?" deal yet (and God could change the can't anyways if that was His will). But I'm ready God... bless me with a child to love. :)

Okay... I think I have ranted enough tonight. A lot of random thoughts from walking to working out to babies... but I have a lot of randomness going on in my head.