I'm going to be an aunt again!! The news is simply bittersweet. By this stage it is definitely more sweet than bitter. My sister in law, Amanda, after over a year of struggling with the normal emotions of wanting something so badly and not being able to have it, struggling with physical problems that had to be fixed, and struggling with herself found out on Monday (August 2nd), after 5 tests hehe, that she is pregnant!!
I cannot lie, once it sunk in I had a hard time... I think in the past almost year that I have been (like my sister in law) desiring after children, EVERYONE I know has had a baby, or become pregnant. I know that God promises to give us the desires of our hearts when we love and trust in Him. I have the knowledge of what is right, and true, that God's promises are true... But I can't help but question, does He know something I don't? Have I done something wrong in His eyes and I don't deserve a child? You know... that is the one that hits me the hardest, that God thinks I don't deserve a baby, that I won't do it justice.
ECK, this is a HAPPY POST.... I am ecstatic for Amanda and Ben, they are very blessed and will do a wonderful job of raising their child to be a great little one. *hehe* IF she can get past the spittin' up and pooin'. It is going to be an awesome 8 more months :)
Seen my nephews today. Met them in TJ Maxx (Jenn was shopping for something) and walked around with her their then we went to Chickfila so we could eat lunch and they could play in the inside play thing. Those boys are getting so big. Keaton will be 4 next month, and I can remember going to the hospital to see him born. It was a great day :)
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