It was a wonderful first day of 2011. We began the day sleeping in, then having a comfy breakfast at home, just the two of us (three counting Rebel). Then we went to the Wallace's for lunch, we cooked out and hung out with some great friends!! We had such a good time eating and playing cards, it was a great start to the new year.
Unfortunately through the day I started in with those horrible feelings of fear. I know that God is in control, regardless of the situation, I can't do anything to stop it, but He knows and He is in complete control. But why can't that be enough? Why am I still scared? I think that is what is most confusing to me right now.
I pray continuously, I know that if God chooses to call me home, it is Him I'm going to, but I wonder, is it a sin to not want to go just yet? I want to be with God, please don't get me wrong... but ah, I don't know how to put it into words right now.
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