New journey, new blog

I have to keep reminding myself where I have come from in my weight loss journey, because it gets so sad and depressing that I never seen one-derland after my gastric bypass surgery.

A lot of people ask me if I think the gastric bypass was a good decision.  Aside from the complications I had, my over all resounding answer to that question is YES, YES, and one more YES! I mean, I lost 120lbs from July 2007 to November 2007.  However, my one regret is that I was not fully committed.  Whether it was my age, maturity level, or pure out laziness, I’m not 100% sure. But I wish that I had not pushed my limits... which in turn, stretched my stomach back out.  I maintained my weight loss of 120 lbs (bouncing between 220-225) for a couple of years, and then started gaining in 2008.  By 2009 (my wedding) I was up to 260! I was so disappointed in myself, but I somehow got the gumption (If you know me you know it takes a LOT to motivate me, especially if I feel hopeless) and lost all of the extra weight and even a few extra pounds! In 2010-11 I lost and maintained at around 215-220. 

However, the past year (12months) I have been struggling with a lot of mental challenges, 4 years of infertility had finally taken its toll.  I have been down and depressed, frustrated, angry, and rebellious at times, and in my would that translates into... you guessed it, FOOD.   I have gained back up to 245 and I am miserable.  I have gained more confidence and strength in exercising, though I am not consistent.  I have to do something.

So, a couple weeks ago, after talking to a girl I know, I decided to try the HCG diet, after some research I learned that most of the stuff sold in the stores does not even contain the HCG hormone, so I forked out the extra money and ordered it online.  I have a separate blog set up for this diet specifically, that will get pretty boring I suppose, as I am planning on blogging as consistently as my life will allow me small details like what I ate that day, how many calories I intake, what my weight and measurements are, and probably even photos . . . ehh... may keep the photos for my personal use, don’t want to scare anyone (it is purty skerry).  You can keep up with this journey (Round 1 will be approximately 6 weeks) by visiting: http://toshanahcgdiet.blogspot.com/

Wish me luck!