Promises

I know that God has promised.  I know that He has spoken to me very intimately regarding our situation. I know that I should be okay because He promised, therefore it will happen. But, let's be honest...

I'm not. 

And though there are not a lot of people that know our situation intimately inside and out.  It is very frustrating to feel the pain, the gut-wrenching fear, and to try to ease out of uneasy situations and be told I should be fine "because God promised".  I'm not fine.  It hurts, promises or not. 

I'm sure this isn't a very spiritual blog post, and I probably don't sound very faithful or trusting.  I am, I assure you, I have been very faithful and I love God with all of my heart.  But I am human, I hurt, I doubt, I am scared.  

But even through all my doubts and fears, I come across scriptures in the oddest of places... this one, in Joshua 21:45  

"Not a single one of all the good promises the Lord had given to the family of Israel was left unfulfilled; everything He had spoken came true."